Currently, I feel the worst I have ever felt. Death and illness are not things I have experienced firsthand and now I feel raw, sad, and tired. Most days my base feelings are a combination of sadness and lethargy. While the actual feelings are pretty normal, I am noticing a not so good thinking pattern.
I seem to be falling into an "all or nothing" thinking. This is when I think that everything is bad and nothing good happens. It seems to be playing in a loop almost nonstop
As I am feeling sad I end up staying at home and feeling even sadder. The problem with this is that I didn't even notice it happening.
As luck would have it, the other day I was jolted out of my negative routine by a small errand. A walk to the library.
I was due to return some books so I went for a walk to the library. When I went out it made such a difference to my mood! Not because something amazing happened but a combination of three small pleasant instances.
The weather was pleasant. Not windy and not chilly, which is a huge thing if you are from Melbourne.
Then I saw a peony tree. I love peonies!
And then I saw a two cappuccino coloured Airdoodles (A cross between an Airedale and a Poodle, which I don't have a photo of, unfortunately). The combination of these three things made me so happy.
This change of scenery reminded me that the world is still full of lovely things. It made realise that I still have amazing family members, friends and loved ones who love me.
When life gets stressful we can forget to be grateful but this is the best time to be grateful.
When life throws a curveball don’t wait for something big and magical to make you feel happy. Enjoy the small things. Go for a nice walk, admire a nice plant, or enjoy the sunset.
The best and most useful time to focus on being grateful is when you don’t feel like it.
With love and simplicity,